And now the native city , in which you grew up, has become completely alien to you. Literally in a few years! As if a close person has changed so much that you do not recognize him anymore, and instead of supporting and defending him, he attacks you with some kind of incomprehensible malice. You're not one of those who blame the newcomers for all the misfortunes, considering themselves to be a first-class person. But how to explain what is happening? You went through your native city, where you lost the feeling of home - you can not understand it yourself. Now there is a huge number of cars, crowds, pushing each other, people ... Before, you knew the neighbors in person and by name. People went to visit each other, shared joys and sorrows. And now a high "candle" has been attached to your house - and the courtyard has turned into some kind of "Babylonian pandemonium". Nobody greets anyone, they take out the old furniture right on the flower beds ... People feel lost at home. For them, this is just a gigantic hostel, in which everything is for a time and nobody's.
You went through your hometown , got into one of the "secret places", where you have not been for a long time. And she was horrified! Where there were old lindens and benches, now there is an awful "box", and on a narrow street, on which it was so great to wander, do not squeeze already along the sidewalk ... And this is the first time you seriously thought that you should leave from his native city, in which the sensation of the house was lost. What kind of life is this, when every day turns into stress? Just getting to work is a real feat. Three times come, five times you quarrel ... Instead of regularity and thoughtfulness - a round-the-clock fuss. As if around a competition in which everyone rushes headlong - and no attention to those who are around. You're suffocating. You understand that problems are much more significant, but for you, what is happening around is comparable to the loss of a person who is meaningful to you.
Your friends moved to the village and call you. But you are afraid of the prospect of dramatically changing the way of life, work, habits, social circle ... Still, you are a child of a big city. You are used to comfort, you want to go to exhibitions and concerts. You have both mother and close childhood friends here. You are a conservative in character. It is difficult for you to "withdraw from a place of violence". In short, you feel like between two chairs - and in the old life you are uncomfortable, and a new beginning is terrible ... How to regain the missing feeling at home?
All this reminds me of an old joke where the discontent asks the travel agent: "Do you have another globe?" If you run away from local problems now, in a new place, you probably will find some others. It seems that you are not experiencing the best period of your life.
Hence the anxiety , irritability and desire to escape somewhere. Returning the feeling of home is a long and difficult process. You need to start by solving the accumulated problems. If you bring order in your personal life, the city's inconveniences will cease so much to annoy, and the loss of your favorite places will not acquire universal significance. Over time, the understanding will come that one should not run away, but as far as he can defend his house.