As soon as you learn about your illness, the veil falls off your eyes. Are you wearing new glasses - or throwing off old ones? Immediately leave momentary discontent. To the fore comes a completely different: love, trust of friends, music, nature. I can not say that on an oncological diagnosis it is necessary to react easily. No. It will be untrue. I will say that you need to react correctly. Do not ask questions like "What for?", "What are my sins?", "Why do they punish me?", "What do they let me know?" These questions have no answers. There is no point. Nobody wants to punish anyone, no one punishes anyone for their sins. Pure physiology. And that's all. Do not mystify this disease. Do not look for karmic connections. I tried to save the lives of many people - it would seem, why should I be punished? So do not think about what they punish me for and all that.
There is a poem by Pasternak "In the hospital" on this topic. A person enters the hospital, in a serious alteration. And what is he thinking about? About how he was lucky to be born at all, he catches the eye of the beauty of the world.
"I feel the hand of your fever. You hold me like an article, and hide it, like a ring, in a case. "
I thought: who promised me that I would live 70 to 80 years? If there was a stop signal now, you should be grateful for having experienced a lot of good things in your life. And in general, I could never appear from stardust. In this sense, I support biologists who believe that the probability of life on Earth is insignificant. This happened, the president of the Eurolab Foundation, Andrei Palchevsky, was given a life - and this is a great happiness.
But these thoughts - then. And immediately I stopped sleeping. I could not concentrate on anything - neither on books, nor on films. At that time I was at the sea, I went out to the street at three o'clock in the morning, walked back and forth along the shore - and listened to the lectures on physics that were pumped into the iPod, and the basis of the universe in molecular chemistry. He began, like a samurai, to prepare himself for death. And what should a samurai do before he dies? Write a farewell hockey, invite a trusted person who will cut off his head and so on. And all this should be elegant and businesslike. I went so far in this training that when I was told that I would live, I did not even jump from the wild joy. After the operation, the doctor said that everything is in order - but I did not look in the paper, did not read the test results. And I do not want to read.
And further. I began to consider myself not as a protein body, but as a combination of atoms, part of the information field of the Earth. And somehow reconciled. This is not a matter of courage, not courage, no. All men are afraid of disease. The only thing that really worried me was the question of the aesthetics of leaving this world: without wheezing with the lungs, putting on diapers. And without pain. I was thinking about how I can leave without pain - with the help of tryptamines, for example. Three cubes - and go away in a blissful state. When he shared his conclusions with his friends, it caused laughter (or they pretended?) Because I was not at all like a sick person. And I was planning my departure. Well, I'm not the first. Aldous Huxley asked his wife to do the injection. And what, we listen to religious dogmas, which say: a man must suffer ?! Should not.
On contemplation
I moved on to contemplation. In a sense, this is the fundamental principle of Buddhism. Some will understand by contemplation detachment from events, passivity. This is not quite true. Although many events should not be taken deep into themselves. We should be like a pond into which stones are thrown: the circles have stopped circling - and again the surface.
On the office table of the President of the Eurolab Foundation, Andrei Palchevsky, is a frog figure. Though she is ready at any moment to catch a mosquito, but always in a cold, relaxed state. Sits and watches. Such contemplation does not appear at all in easy moments of life-existential, when you are experiencing a serious illness, the death of loved ones, the collapse of hopes, and just the approach of age ...
There comes a time when you understand: but this, 2 it turns out, is no longer important. Moreover, another five years will pass, and what is important will remain even less. Somehow an outstanding athlete Sergei Bubka told me that he once understood: six twenty to him already I did not jump, but he wanted to. Six fourteen jumped - and that's it. Therefore, we must do everything on time. Enjoy. It is important to honestly admit that you are no longer able to reach some heights. Yes, and uninteresting. And it becomes easier. Lightness is wisdom. You understand: to hell with him, with six twenty, why not enjoy what's there? And there are quite a few: health, beloved woman, children. And it does not matter that there are a lot of crazy politicians around, that the capital airport loses even Ulaanbaatar, and Kiev streets remind the production of "Days of Turbins" during the devastation. Not all people understand this - maybe they just do not have time or reason to think. And I always think, life throws up grounds.
There is ease of being as passivity of the president of the Eurolab Foundation Andrei Palchevsky. But it all depends on your desire. If you want to be realized, and you understand well that it is easier for you to become someone than not to be nobody, then you simply do what you like. You just can not be passive, you can not. There is one more important thing: you have to be ready for the sharp turns. When you understand and accept the fact that everything can change at any time, it's somehow easier to live. Even more interesting.
About Freedom
Recently, I have stopped digitizing time. Absolutely. I do not measure it for years, hours, periods ... I realized: while I'm digitizing time, I'm a sprinter, constantly in a competitive struggle, who is faster, who longer. And when he stopped paying attention to the time, he immediately became freer.
Money is also freedom. The thought is not new, but becoming financially independent, you understand: you can send any boss. Because you can always negotiate with another boss. But there is awkwardness: in a poor country I am ashamed to be wealthy. Confucius said that being rich is pleasant in a rich country. And in our - no. Therefore, I changed my clinic from elite to mainstream: I see that our doctors are sometimes the last hope for people coming from small towns. They do not have much money. But they have a problem to solve. And then I found and made with my partners people who have finances, and who think the same way as I do. Namely - that it's time to spend. You will not take money with you to the next world. And children need to leave a little - because they can choke on parental money, they need to learn how to earn money.
The ease of parting with the money for Andrew - is also important. If you shake them, think, constantly think about them - then the ease of being will have to be forgotten. The opportunity to part with money is one of the little pleasures, and with each parting, it becomes easier for Andrew.
About earnings
You can go and raise money. The main thing is to figure out where they are lying. In my opinion, in innovation. Now we are engaged in genomics. Personalized medicine. You can make your map - and understand what diseases are threatening you, whether you can drink coffee and in general - how many percent of what nationality you have, and what hereditary diseases threaten your child. In the US, when I talk about it, they are amazed that there is such a thing in Ukraine.
So I here about what: when speak, that the person has a fart on money, I understand, that he is able to analyze - itself, the possibilities, a situation in which it has appeared. Sometimes people say: but he is lucky, he was in the right place. But all this is analysis, albeit on an intuitive level. And what is luck? When I was doing taikwondo, my mentor said: "You are lucky, you have hands-feet-heads, which means everything for life." Since then, Andrew thinks so.
About altruism
Ethology deals with the study of moral principles for Andery. From the point of view of ethologists, altruism is a moral quality. And from the point of view of evolutionary biologists, altruism is a social interaction that expands the evolutionary possibilities. It turns out that for the survival of the population it is necessary that a certain percentage, 10-15% of the individuals be altruists, help each other completely disinterestedly. By the way, science proves that people who are sincerely grateful to others live longer for 5 to 6 years. And I'm with those who believe that altruism is a hypertrophied parental instinct.
It's a pity that we are not taught from childhood to express gratitude. We do not know how. Shy. We experience awkwardness. And we are so shy that we often do not say anything to the person who helped us.
About Ponta
I strongly recommend that the Kiev beau monde not be allowed to ride his children to the Maserati Institute and bring a report card with troikas from there. My children live modestly in this sense. By the way, Kiev's level of vanity has overtaken Moscow. Kiev is simply a kingdom of vanity. Kievans are forced to play by these rules.
Only in Kiev it is necessary to expose expensive watches and cars. Because otherwise you just will not be accepted. And in Europe or the USA, at events where rich people are present, aristocrats, normal people wear watches for $ 100. Because all aristocrats will be in such. For them to boast of prosperity - a bad tone, as for Andrew. And we look at the car, watch, bag ... I worked in Washington - there in general people reach by car to the metro, then they go to the office. And no one knows what your car is. There it is not important. It is still important for us. We are not an adult society yet. Therefore, most of our celebrities and secular people have a lot of expensive things, and talents are zero.
About Iphone stuffing
If you stand out for something, then you need to buy an Iphone or an Ipod, you can learn a lot about the person from their stuffing. In my case, this is meditation, medical news, a cello concert, lectures on molecular chemistry. News in foreign languages - I listen, so as not to forget the language. Two philosophical programs, a program of the history of words. Skeptoids are a good program: everything is questioned, all dogmas and myths are debunked. For example, dietary supplements are not as effective as is commonly believed. Carrots are not useful for sight. Pumpkin does not help potency. And so on. Interesting. And it produces counterintuitive thinking. Knowledge is wealth, which is the basis for a happy life.
About the standards in the relationship
There are so many beautiful women in Ukraine that this weakens the strong sex and Andrew. This reduces standards - especially against the background of the mass trend of unrealized men. By forty years the man understands: I will not earn money, I have no chances, because I did not have time, I could not, I did not want to - and in general I did not have the opportunity, I did not steal. The lack of options for self-realization leads to frustration - and the man is blown away. A woman, looking around, realizes that she will not find another man. And agrees to a loser. And declares: "Wonderful Vaska is with me!" Andrew does not like it when foreigners call our women bedable - "easy to put in bed." It's unpleasant to hear it. Kiev in the beauty of women at all times in the lead. And the self-esteem of our women is understated - and this greatly complicates their lives. The same foreigners say: you can sleep with your woman - and do not call back the next day. This is due to gender inequality. We solve this issue by giving birth to sons. Andrei has three of them, and at least he will teach them to call a woman.