Why did this happen to me?
Ривил it is assured: doctors and till the end do not know, whence illnesses are taken. And do not know how to take multiple sclerosis, an alternative treatment is needed for this. And the main thing is how to treat them. Thousands of medical directories were drawn up, schemes for taking medications were prescribed, but each time trusting in "white coats", the patient agrees to experiment with himself.
In her careless 34 Riquel seemed an embodiment of carelessness. Psychologist and journalist, she was an exemplary wife, composed children's tales, brought up three children and expected the birth of the fourth son. Rivil was prescribed a cesarean, but something went wrong in the operation, bleeding was revealed, the woman in labor had lost a lot of blood. So much that in the blood bank it was not enough, had to throw a cry among the miners (it was in Donetsk) to donate blood for a young mother. The miners surrendered. And, apparently, along with someone else's blood, the body got neuroinfection. Mom and son stayed alive, but for Rivil, it was a completely different life with the diagnosis of multiple sclerosis and the first group of disabilities.
"At first it was a shock," Rivil said. - I could not understand why this happened to me - so life-loving and positive. I was looking for reasons, but could not find for multiple sclerosis, I could not find an alternative treatment. I analyzed all my thoughts and actions. I realized that by the age of 34 I had not realized my potential, was dependent and did what other people need, not me. I was not loved and did not want to. I came to the idea of my cruel heart - the psychosomatic cause of multiple sclerosis. I, myself, never loved my husband, but rather I was afraid of him. And she drove herself into a corner. The causes of almost any disease are deep insults, lack of cheerfulness, happiness hormones, satisfaction. The disease completely changed me. "
Rivil said that he respects his illness. He either kills a person, or makes him unusually strong. The second scenario is probably an exception, multiple sclerosis is not treated and slowly, but surely turns a person into a rubble. "With this disease, you walk like a cloud," continues my companion. - Sclerotic plaques destroy the membranes of nerve fibers, they seem to be bare. A person becomes insensitive, does not see, does not hear. You want to go, but your legs do not know how. You want to take something, but do not take your hands. On that decisive morning, I could no longer hold a pen or a needle. My fingers did not obey me, but my legs refused to go. "
This condition was preceded by five years of classic hormonal treatment in hospitals for multiple sclerosis, alternative treatment. The liver of Rivil has already stratified from the side effects of prednisolone and other heavy artillery of pharmacies. Vision fell, speech became inconsistent, it moved mainly on crutches. "I was completely disillusioned with medicine. I understood that from this side I can not wait for help, "Rivil said. - I felt that they were experimenting on me. Since then, 16 years have passed, but nothing has changed in the treatment of multiple sclerosis. I meet with young people who turn to me for help, all the same: the same drugs and approaches. And the final: a wheelchair, a bed, and - there is no person. I got into medical bondage, and, realizing this, I began to look for another way. "
From the point of view of official medicine, Rivile took up stupid things. Every day she imagined how a company of brave soldiers with special pumps was cleaning her liver, sucking out sclerotic plaques. Talked with her body, she urged the sick cells (they are mad or crazy) to live in unison with the healthy. It was much more difficult than drinking a pill. She pictured herself on the operating table in heaven. The consultation of angelfish surgeons made the decision to change the liver of Rivil not all and completely, but in parts. And she fantasized about how the lobule behind the lobule organ is recovering. When a couple of years later she was sent to the ultrasound, the doctor did not believe his eyes: the liver was healthy. In her imagination, Rivil bathed under the streams of the celestial waterfall, which washed out the disease from every cell. She struggled with multiple sclerosis with creative thinking.
Conversation with baracabala
"I believed in my inner strength, that my body is a beautiful machine that was tired of refueling with bad gasoline," explains Rivil. - And I started working with my body myself. I always woke up in a good mood, greeted with all my organs, which, by the way, I am doing to this day. Did morning exercises of her thoughts and organs. When you're sick, you need to think less about yourself, but still love yourself. I started a diary of good deeds, and began to look for those who are weaker than me, to whom I can help. My fingers still listened to me badly, but I made the first two dolls and went with them to the children's oncology division of Kiev. Later these visits entered the system. She talked with children, asked about her health, smiled, sang songs with them, showed performances, composed fairy tales. One of them is about a rabid cancer cage baracabal, an aliens from another planet that everyone is afraid of, but she really is afraid of us. I helped myself, helping others. "
Rivil did not allow her loved ones to regret, she ceased to consider herself a sick person. And this, she said, accelerated the break with her husband. He did not suffer the inner freedom that he had gained. They've divorced. For three years she was engaged in herself, but at the same time, as if she did not notice herself. "Once I realized that I could move without crutches," Rivil said. - For a time I walked with chopsticks, and then I felt that they were interfering. I was hooked by a woman. She said: "You are so beautiful, young, why do you need sticks?" I thought: "And, really, why?" Friends invited me to the hike, I already walked normally, but without the feeling of firmness in my feet. I was ashamed to admit that I can not skate. We found a bicycle, I sat down, put my feet on the pedals and drove off. Soon, sensitivity returned to my feet. The main principle of victory over the disease is not to put it on the throne, otherwise it will conquer all your territory, will demand sacrifice and worship. "
The stimulus, which step by step removed Rivil from the diagnosis of multiple sclerosis, was life itself, the desire to do something good and useful. She began with a puppet theater for cancer patients, who were his actors. She wrote good fairy tales, where the main characters magically conquered their ailments, and then put them with small patients. The hospital life of children undergoing chemotherapy, does not shine with joyful events and diversity. The fairy fairy Rivil with her performances pulled children out of the oppressive atmosphere. She worked with everyone together and with each one separately, and the results were shocking.
"I was engaged with a twelve-year-old girl who was operated twice," says my companion. "She had a stem tumor in her spinal cord." Abroad such neoplasms are considered fatal, inoperable. The tumor grows until, after all, the person crushes. When I started to study with my patient, she already had metastases to nearby organs. We worked in the bathroom, decorated it with decorations, arranged candles. And with their eyes closed they visualized the points of the tumor and the dreamlike snow-removing machines that collected and took them away. Then they turned on the shower, and the girl imagined how the fresh May rain washes away all the remnants of the illness from her. When she said she felt the scent of flowers in the garden, the water was turned off. After three months of study, MRI control pictures showed that the tumor had virtually resolved. The doctors were shocked. Then this family emigrated to Canada. We have not seen each other for five years. Recently they called - my patient is in perfect order. "
Lust for life
Rivil said that often people do not want to recover. Ninety percent of people with severe illness like living in the epicenter of pity for their person. "Psychologically, it was very difficult for me to give up sticks," recalls Rivil. - When you are not like everyone else, you use the sympathy bonus: do not stand in lines, agree with you, they always miss it. I had a man who after several lessons refused to continue. He said: "I do not know how I will live if I get better." The first rule of recovery is to despise your diagnosis. They say to you: you have something, and you - do not believe. If a person feels unwell and goes to the doctor, he becomes involuntarily subordinate. Including in relation to his illness. And it is very important to act, strive for something, have a goal in life. In Western Ukraine there is a man who treats cancer with fear. To him bring hopeless patients. He sends relatives, and he himself puts the patient back on a motorcycle and drives to the forest to ride.
In the beginning they go quietly, but at some point the motorcycle gathers a frenzied speed and rushes into the abyss. The passenger realizes that they will break up right now, clinging to the driver (his ribs were broken repeatedly after the grip of the patients). A second before death, a person forgets everything, and turns all his attention to his own life, realizes its value. Then it turns out that there is no cliff ahead, but the vision of the world changes in these few seconds. After all, the patient has no goal, he does not want anything and dies of fatigue and emptiness. But at the moment of real contact with death, the thirst for life returns to him. This method helps almost everyone. "
The last time Rivil took the tests ten years ago - since she did not go to hospitals. She is not interested in this. She looks great and says that her life after the illness has become much more interesting and happier. Still would! Most recently she met real love - her current husband, Igor. Daughter Rivilville secretly from her mother posted on her dating site her profile. Initially, the list of applicants for acquaintance was numbered 900, gradually the number of candidates was reduced to three. On the photo Igor appeared to Rivil too young, but very positive. She decided to get acquainted with him, in order to redirect the daughter. But, having met, they no longer parted. Igor opened the world of ayurveda. She switched to vegetarian food, refused tea and coffee, and became deeply absorbed in Eastern philosophy after traveling to India. Igor and Rivil are like-minded people. Together they are working on the project "The Fairy Tale House" for cancer patients, working together in a children's theater, enjoying life together and discovering new facets with the help of each other.
"As a rule, getting sick, people torment themselves with the question: why? Rivil thought. - But very few people ask: why? I answered for myself: if I did not get sick, a coup in my thoughts would not have happened, and I could not help many people. I lived in a garage before the illness, and then I got to the palace. I realized: the human body has tremendous power, you just need to open it in yourself. "